Dia, yang sering berkata pergilah.
Dia, yang asyik tuturkan biarlah.
Dia, yang selalu mengalah.
Dia, juga punya hati yang kenal erti lelah.

I wonder how much longer should i carry this wounded heart. Deep down there, there's pains that i couldn't heal. And today, its hurts the most.

dear future husband,

Tak pasti sama ada berkesempatan untuk berumah tangga atau tidak, but still, this is what i want.

So, dear future husband,

plese enjoy your life as much as you want now. you love clubbing? do it. You want to drink? Go and get wasted. you want to try drugs? Try it. having a lot girlfriends? please yourself. but once you are married to me, i want you to be 'clean'. be a good husband. guide me to heaven. You can't guide me? Its okay. Together we will learn. i dont want to hear "i regret my decision to get married early." i am not a queen control but i want you to know that you must give 100% comitment on this marriage. until then, be whatever you want. i'll be there when you are ready.

I wonder until when should I shed my tears. It's hard to go through a day without tears. I mean, I am not supposed to be weak. I used to be strong independent girl. What have life done to me?

I too, for once want to feel happy without worries.